- 8:50 pm - Mon, Apr 1, 2013
Lack of Sleep and Making “The List”
A recent study says that 64% of women with small children don’t sleep through the night.
I can relate to “the list” Sarah Jessica Parker describes in this clip. Sometimes this is me… but most of the time I get out of bed and work, read, watch tv, or research random things.
- 11:03 am - Wed, Mar 27, 2013
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Seeking Creative Women
A couple weeks ago I was contacted by a college student who is researching why there aren’t more women in creative departments.
Today, we are set to have our interview and ironically, this video came to me organically twice this morning. Interesting how that happens sometimes.
I’ll share more info on this soon.
- 8:00 pm - Tue, Oct 30, 2012
Let’s Go on an Adventure Together
My greatest adventure is motherhood… makes me smile all the time.
- 4:38 pm - Thu, Oct 18, 2012
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I Like to Work
Yesterday, I had lunch with a friend and He ask me what I like to do. I started laughing and said “I like to work… I mean I like to spend time with my friends and family, read, write,
take photos and travel… but other than that I like to work”.
Not long ago my husband was complaining that when I’m not working - I’m still working… I make shirts and paper cuttings that I sell in my
etsy store or sometimes I design invitations or take photos of friends/kids. He says I need a hobby. I tried to explain those are my hobbies. He says - yeah, but it’s frustrating to you… and you never sleep b/c you take on too much. Sometimes you are disappointed when you get orders or when you take on a side projects. And he is right - sometimes I am disappointed… mostly in myself for not being able to focus and get everything done and at the quality that I want it done.
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- 11:58 pm - Thu, Oct 11, 2012
The Day I Thought I Lost My Uterus
This is a story about the day I thought I lost my uterus. I know it’s not like losing a pen, your phone or keys but here goes…
This story is continued from these other entries 1 and 2 but you don’t have to go back and read it now.
Early the next morning, I woke up to the sound of hospital machines - some that beeped but mainly the one that was pumping air into my lungs. I realized rather quickly and frantically that my wrist were tied to the bed rails and that I could not speak b/c something was connected to my mouth/throat maybe even my nose. I was still a little dazed but clear enough to think - “get this thing off of me”.
I made enough noise with my hands on the rails of the hospital bed that a nurse did come check on me. She tried to tell me where I was and what was going on with the breathing machine. I remember she said they left the ventilator in to make me more comfortable. I don’t remember anything about that machine being comfortable.
I made a motion to write with my hand. She got me a pen and clip board and freed my right hand from the bed. All I could think was hysterectomy, but truth said, I am not a great speller and I was afraid I wouldn’t spell it correctly. I wrote “uterus - still there?” in a scribbly hand writing. I think I had to write it twice. She read out loud.. Uterus - still there? She said, “no, you came in for a hysterectomy… remember?”
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- 10:35 pm
My Biggest Fear (before the boys)
Many years ago at a birthday dinner my friend Holly ask for everyone to share their greatest fear. Mine… Having a hysterectomy before I was able to have children. This fear was so great it could take my breath away at the thought. - It actually, still can take my breath away and I have two beautiful boys now.
I recently heard that a friend from college who has 2 children has to have a hysterectomy and I almost broke down in tears over it. She said, it wasn’t that big of a deal and that she didn’t want anymore kids anyway. She had the choice of chemo or hysterectomy. She of course choice the hysterectomy, and it was the right choice - I just felt some flashbacks of my old fears.
My fears stemmed from my personal experiences… when I was 25 years old I found out that I had 2 fibroid tumors on my uterus. In my initial examines we realized the tumors were pretty large and would need to come out before I ever tried to have children.
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- 2:45 pm - Tue, Oct 2, 2012
I want to be the kind of mom, wife, person that my kids look at and realize they can do anything.
me
- 8:31 pm - Sun, Aug 12, 2012
Appreciation 5 - My Extended Family
As you can read here during the month of August, I’m focusing on appreciation and using notes that I wrote down last month as my guide.
I’m way behind but did make this card to send to my parents in law….
- 9:06 pm - Wed, Aug 8, 2012
Conversations with Toddlers - Open the Door
E ran in our bdrm and locked the door… G trailing behind caring a plastic clothes hanger.
G: E open the door now.
E: no
G: Mom, I had good manners and ask and he won’t let me in.
Me: I think you need to try again. Say… Please open the door.
G: E, Please open the dooooor.
E: I don’t want G to hurt me.
Me: G is not going to hurt you.
G: But, I am going to hook you. (as he holds up his plastic like he is Captain Hook)
Me: E, you might want to just keep the door locked.
- 10:07 pm - Thu, Aug 2, 2012
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Appreciation Experiment - Day 1 - My Husband
As you can read
here, I’m working on focusing on appreciation for the next 30 days. During the month of July I jotted down one thing I’m grateful for and during the month of August I’m following that list as a map of where to show appreciation.
So, on Day 1, I’m grateful for my husband, Aias. I’m not one of those Mom’s that “do it all”. I don’t even claim to be. Aias does travel a good bit for work but when he is home… our jobs as parents is a partnership. There’s not a “I always put them to bed” or “I always give them a bath” or like some men I’ve heard say… “I just don’t do dirty diapers”. We both do whatever needs to be done… and I’m so thankful to have him as my other half and I realize I don’t tell him or show him enough.
We (the universal we) often neglect those closest to us and loved ones end up feeling taken for granted, not appreciated or just inadequate … I have two theories for this behavior. We always expect more from those we care about and the more interaction the more opportunities there are to let each other down. We are all humans and we disappoint each other but we also need to be grateful for what we do have and show appreciation when we can.
Today as part of my showing appreciation exercise I littered our house with notes of gratitude for all the wonderful things my husband does for me.
- 6:25 am - Mon, Apr 30, 2012
Climbing… Conversations with Toddlers
The Scene: I walked into the bathroom to see G standing on top of our vanity.
Me: What are you doing?
G: I’m a very good climber. (with some climbing hand motions)
Me: Well, of course you are… but you don’t always have to prove it.
- 5:16 pm - Sun, Mar 18, 2012
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My heart is broken… Conversations with Toddlers
Me walking into the bathroom to see Griffin about to dump poop out of one of those little portable toddler toilets.
Me: stop… Stop… STOP… GRIFFIN STTTOOOPPPP NOW…
Griffin, Still holding the toilet up.
Me:. GRIFFIN STTTOOOPPPP NOW. . GRIFFIN STTTOOOPPPP NOW.
G just looking at me kinda confused why I’m yelling.
Me: GRIFFIN, WHEN I SAY STOP IT MEANS STOP.
G starts crying.
Me: I’m sorry if I scared you but when I say stop it means you need to STOP right away. What were you doing… you look like you were about to make a BIG mess. I’m sorry that I yelled at you. Are you OK?
G: (crying) My heart is broken. (this kid know how to pull some heart strings)
Me: Oh, mine too. I’m sure it will be better soon.
